At the end of a song

I am a really big fan of the Carpenters, have been so since my uncle’s wedding when i was about 9 years old. Myself and my sister sang some of their songs at the wedding and we used to watch the Karen Carpenter story over and over and over and over again and again.

My all time favourite song is Superstar, i especially love the Sonic Youth version.

However, now in this moment i came across the song, “At the end of a song“, and it seems in perfect fitting. I thought my life that i had built down in Cork was great. The past number of weeks have been incredibly hard for me and after a lot of thought and realisation i came to a conclusion that i realised was one of the best i could ever make for myself. If i loved and valued myself as a human being i would walk away and walking away has been one of the best decisions i believe i have made.

Even though it was and still incredibly difficult, the moment i made it i started to begin to feel right again. It’s kind of hard to explain, but this song kind of helps explain it.

Perhaps we never were the right ones for each other, perhaps we just were never meant to be.

I have spent the past few days getting some space and looking after myself building up my body and mind to be stronger. I could not ask for stronger support then what i have now. I love each and every one of those people who have been such a support to me and have listened to me, not judged what i said or told me what to do, but just listened and let me come to my own decision.

Life is too short.

They tell me
Somewhere this life isn’t crazy
But I’ve traveled the world far and wide
And I say they’re wrong

Don’t sell me
Stories that music’s a lady
It’s not when the singer’s alone
At the end of a song

(*) At the end of a song
There’s no one
After the last note is played
Only the memory stays
Then even that fades away
And there’s nothing so hard
As convincing your heart
That you should start singing again

You told me
Nothing could change perfect lovers
But like ev’ry promise you made
It broke before long

It’s lonely
Falling away from each other
But we’ve come to the last of your words
And the end of a song

Guinness Storehouse

Off i went very early last Saturday morning with a lift from Darren, we went on our merry way to the Guinness Storehouse

for  a photo walk around the store house. Our guide Lisa Fitzsimons was a gem, introducing us to the store house and been so approachable and friendly made the experience that more enjoyable.

The breakfast we received was really impressive. Now i didn’t try out a pint of Guinness but i did have a sip, i was so knackered after the early start that i think one pint and i would have been unconscious. Thanks Sinead for that flattering shot, could  i look any worse, i could get you back, but unfortunately you looked only too fabulous in the shots i took of you.

One really cool thing about this meet is that i met someone from Sligo who i hadn’t seen in over 4 years, it was really nice seeing and talking with Guy and listening to him talk about his new puppy.

So alls that’s left is to show you few shots from the day. I was using  a different camera than usual, but i got on grand with it. I’m probably putting too many shots onto this post but what the hell. There’s a few more over on pixie.

End of a season

While out in my back garden today picking up the dog poo…eugh i took at look at all the flowers i have planted in my lovely home.I love my herb garden which consists of lots of herbs from lavender, mint, oregano, corriander, rosemary and basil and so on. I love it, it is so beautiful to see the bees and butterflies flying from one flower to another.

So  up the back of the garden i had some plans to do a good bit of work with, i suppose that shall have to be put on hold now. But all my summer flowers are starting to die out, kind of sad really. My marigolds which i grew from seed are near dead they should really be beheaded.

But as we go to Autumn, a season whichi love especially when it’s dry and the leaves are all crispy..Forest Park in Boyle here i come. But anyway here’s a few of my back garden flowers.

Schmap for the iPhone

A photo of mine sometime go was chosen to to be used on Schmap Cork Guide. Well here’s the link to Schmap for the iPhone.

Now the photo isn’t the greatest in the world. It was taken on one of my little walks with Trilo one day. But i am chuffed none the less.

Amie and Trilo

This is a photo of my niece and my dog Trilo. Amie had some food in her hand and Trilo was giving Amie her full attention. I love this photo as it’s just darn cute.

Gimme some attention

My dog Trilo is lying at my bedroom door as i write this making such noices as whining and just staring into the bedroom. She wants to get in for a lie on the nice comfy bed. usually she’s not allowed but recently i’ve been letting her in with me as i’ve been going through quite a tough time recently and truth be told it’s nice to have her there, kind of like a bit of support.

I should really get her back out of this habit as the boundaries in the house have been working really well with her as she used to be able to go anywhere she wanted in the house and in doing so thought she was the boss of the place. Not good.

Ah i just told her to be quite and go to bed. She’s lying at the door looking in and kind of snoozing at the same time. I guess she’s looking out for me.

I can’t sleep.

Sony Ericsson w580i

I went and bought myself a new phone about a week and a half ago and i have to say i love it. I never had a phone that did anything more than write a text message and make and a phone call. So this phone has me well entertained with it’s camera, Walkman and calorie counter. It will even keep a track of my running when i go back to it..am too injured at the moment for it.

I got some mixed reviews about the phone, two people i know have it and both have had either the keys crack or something else go wrong, but it was a manufacture fault and both girls got new phones.

And so i will leave you with few photos from my phone from the last few days.

Chris Cornell is back

Chris Cornell is back… unfortunately i think it would be better if he was just “long gone” and left when his music was something i loved and admired. I just downloaded his new song Long Gone

and i have to say i am horribly horribly disappointed. What is with all that background crap and where are all those beautiful acoustics gone. Chris has teamed up with Timberland in the production of this new single so perhaps he is aiming at the chart market, shame on him. His voice is still as hypnotising as ever but the rest is just so bad.

The lyrics are alright but nothing too hectic. I loved this guy in Soundgarden, i was not too bothered about Audioslave, however i loved his last two albums. If this song is anything to go by i don’t know if i want to waste my money on an album that is only going to disappoint.

Baby
I used to watch your flowers grow
Now it’s rainin’
And all your petals turn to stone
I been prayin’
I turn around and see my rose
But you’ve faded
You let me down, now it’s time to go

You’re like diamonds and I’m like glass
Like oil and water we always clash
Sometimes my confessions are hard for me
I tell you now I’m setting you free

That’s why I’m long gone, long gone
You need to let me fly alone

Flying away for a few months

I’ve been thinking long and hard about going away travelling for a few months. I never had the urge to go away…until not. Actually it’s not so much an urge but more, feic it i gots to get moving life is too settling at the moment, i may never get to do this again in my life.

I’ve been thinking of whether to get a return trip to Oz and go visit some friends and work while there, but then i thought why not do a round the world trip, so that way i could always come home if i really wanted to.

So i’m thinking about 4 months at the most. There is someone i could go travelling with for some of the time so that’s probably not a bad idea, perhaps do South America with her.

Many people have said i should go for it, that it would do me the world of good. I think perhaps it would. I love meeting new people and doing adventurous things so it’d probably be 4 months of Sandy been crazy and not pretending to be not crazy..tee hee.

And so i am planning to go around January 2009. Round the world trip! Better get saving some moolah!

Text messages

A friend sent me a text message the other night, it’s a verse from the Bible. She said it reminded her of three of us girls.

‘a friend standing alone can be attacked and defeated, but two can stand back and conquer, 3 are even better, for a triple braided cord is not easily broken’

That text brought me so much joy and the verse is so true for us. Each of us has been through some things whether through work or in our personal life and we have been there for each other, as someone to talk to, someone to cry with, someone to hug and so on. How blessed am i to have met those girls. Friendship is so important and something to look after.